Nearly unknown in these parts this year, "Spring" seems to have arrived. Gentle warm sunlight, a soft breeze to remind me of that one day so long ago chasing B. through a park and laughing so hard, birds singing about tomorrow and the paradoxical need to be here, right here right now.
It's a refreshing change.
It's also going to be pretty tough to focus in on some of the demands of the day. The Fruit Store is easier to be in when the weather is foul, and the people are glad to come in to a warm happy place. But when the day is sublime and we open the doors out onto 78 and sunny, it's harder to stay focused on what needs to be done. But hey, that's why The Training exists, right?
I love the Fruit Store. Were I a younger man, I'd be working 100% at advancing, working and studying and doing what I could do to move up the hierarchy as fast as I could. It's a great company and has a lot to offer, but for me - at this stage of my life - it's not the answer. It's *an* answer, but not the one I need. But I love it and will do what I can to remain there in some capacity until they ask me to leave.
It's the people. Sure, the Fruit products are all wonderful and magical but it's the people who inspire me to come in early and stay late and challenge myself to be at my best for the duration of my shift. It's a blessing that I've been able to spend time there. And perhaps it's what I've needed to weather this nagai yasumi, this long vacation unasked for and so very dispiriting.
But today's not the day to dwell on that, neh? Today, I will sing with the birds and laugh again about that silly day in the park. And I will do it all here, right here in my heart.
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